It’s been a while. I really got lost in posting on Social Media and over the last few months I have realised that it doesn’t really like me… or how my brain works.
And thats where I need to update you dear reader… too much Bridgerton for a start… I have news.
Since I last posted… er… sometime ago… I have been on quite some journey… one that I never thought I would go on, but it has been life changing and started out as being offended and is now something I shout loud about.
So let us start where I was offended. Always a good place to start and now I recognise that as something that is also part of what this new knowledge has allowed me to embrace – my feistiness… and here I digress already…
Rude! Thats where this journey started. My reaction to when a good friend said, do you think you might have ADHD? wtaf I thought. Surely, someone as smart as I am and at the ripe old age of 53 I would surely… surely…. shit the bed… really?
Click, click, click…. I looked it up. Do the test. click click click.. YES… click click click… YES… shit. Run away… so that was that… emotionally scared and scared… because if that was true… that would mean… what Kerry? What would it mean? I didn’t know and so I ran away. For a few months…
After I had done about ten or more tests on line I signed up for some coaching with my friend… to increase my understanding and acceptance for myself… after a year I began to see patterns and how my life had been navigating my busy brain… and then knowing that it is hereditary I started to look at my mum and her mother, who was diagnosed with PND and ended up taking her own life… it was then I realised that I had work to do.
For all the women who are late diagnosed, like me I will now be focusing my skills of coaching and transformation on how knowledge is power, grief is a journey to embrace and life will never be the same again.
And you know what. For the first time I can finally say that knowing what I know now, I can understand why when you live a life trying to be someone that was never available to you, no matter how much effort or focus you put on it… if you are not doing it with the understanding of your brain, you can work tirelessly and get little results, impacting your self esteem and life.
To this end… I shall be back, sharing more on here, as I go through and learn. If you are curious about your own ADHD or ND please do lean in. I promise it is worthwhile…
Love & Transformation,
Kerry